39.

weeks, that is.

Its a rainy Sunday. Bobio and I went to church this morning, ate left over soup with fresh Portuguese rolls for lunch. He went out to spend a little Q-T with his (twin) brother. I am sewing. And listening to "Ray Lamontagne Radio" on Pandora.

And waiting.

And I'm not a fan.

Of the waiting, that is. I know that the "due date" is a rough estimate of the expected arrival time of a babe. I know she will come shen she is ready. But I DON'T like not knowing when that will be. I DON'T like hyper-analyzing every little ache or pain, every sore muscle, every solid movement she makes in my belly. I DON'T like not knowing what is going on inside my body.

I feel like I am sitting in limbo. Waiting, waiting, waiting.

*sigh*

I'm facebook'ed out. I'm going cross-eyed from sewing (I just had to take a break because I sewed the next panel of my quilt on upside down, and I don't know where my seam-ripper is). I'm tired of crocheting a million baby hats and things... I'm getting a severe case of "nana hands" just like Erin does when she whips out a whole freakin' afghan in one day.

Yesterday Bobio helped vacuum out my car and wipe down the interior all sparkly-clean. We installed the infant seat, and I taught him how to get it in and out of the base so when this bean decides she's ready to meet us he won't be a nervous wreck about how to do it.

I spent some time with Connor and Avery and their mom and dad. We sat on the floor and read books and played with a block-train and ate PB&J for dinner.

Griff has been away for the whole weekend with his dad's side of the family, so I haven't even been able to harp on him about cleaning his room or anything.

I'm emotional and tired and wide awake at the same time. Bob found me sitting in the rocking chair near the babe's cradle this morning, just rocking and staring blankly at the wall. Because I've run out of things to do. And there is still more time. Time to wait, and wonder, and become more and more anxious about things I have no control over.

I think I'm going to go eat some Strawberry Jell-o. And snuggle with the dog. And wait for my boys to get home.

More waiting....

Comments

[Sarah Hodgkinson]

Just checking in to see if you have posted any baby info.
Thinking of you....

[steph]

Ohhhh, I so totally LOST MY MIND during the "waiting" part. I am not patient, and I need to PLAN, so it was not a good time for me. Looking forward to seeing pics of the bean & wishing you a very easy labor!! :)

[erin]

cmonnnn bean :)

[Linda Beeson]

I am so tired just reading all of that! Hoping to hear the sweet sounds of a baby's little cry soon!